Monday, May 21, 2007

Another Message From Rudenski And His Conversation With God

"Don't worry so much about this world...death has been conquered and swalled up in life. You are more than just the life you are living right now. I knew you before you were born...before you entered your mother's womb

"You struggle because you chose to struggle. You also chose the situation you are in right now. You have a mind constrained by constraints you put on it. You have a body with constraints you put on it. You have your beautiful spirit and turn what you have into what you desire for your mind and for your body.

"Forgive yourself of all harm you have caused in the past with your body and your mind.

"I Am.

"I hold nothing against you. It is you who is hard on yourself. Quit the dialogue in your head where you take shots at yourself and insult yourself. Don't think that I am thinking those damning thoughts about you. You are my child and I love you at least as much as I loved you before you wre born.. But more love has been added from the life you have lived in your world.

"I Am.

"I want you to let go of your negative self-criticism and when you start to be down yourself, look toward the idealized you and see who you could be rather than the mistakes you are making and the harm you have caused. The greatest gift you can give to me is for you not to punish yourself day in and day out for your weakness but instead, I smile and angels rejoice and sing when you...even you...turn from your weakness and stand up for what is good and right.

"Good is that which you would have done if you rememebred your special gifts that are. And right is not some place self-rightous anger but the gentle still voice of doing what you know spreads love. In that quiet place you will remember...without the confusion...what you came into this world to do.

"I Am.

"In a place of loving-kindness start acting as if you are living your plan for yourself and the heavens will open up and meet you on your way to your path to what it is you desired when you left my side...to live your life...in the body you chose...with the mind your chose...in the place and time you chose...here and now.

"It is your time to give who you are...your idealized you...to the world as there is no time here in heaven...You are where you are and what you are but time ends and you will be free of whatever heartaches you have and you will be you without the self-abuse that you give yourself...

"Draw closer to me and I will draw closer to you.

"I Am.

"When you wake up, do you see your idealized you going through your day? Do walk in steps of who you are before you were born and add only the goodness of what you can be today? When your body and mind rebel, overcome their rebellion and you will be an overcomer.

"I Am...(You)."

Saturday, May 19, 2007

Some Things Just Don't Fit

Back in the late '80s, when I lived in Santa Monica, I was working as a front desk clerk/waiter at the Bel Air Bay Club in Pacific Palisades. It was a beautiful job. It was a cushy job. And it was an awesome thing to see TV and movie stars visit the club for one reason or another. One day, in fact, Barry Greg Brady Williams held his wedding there - and the entire Brady Bunch came to celebrate. Another time, I got all dressed up in a black tux and with a hot date, and crashed the annual Spring party for the folks of NBC's Days Of Our Lives, fooling everyone, at least for a few hours, into thinking that I had just been hired as semi-regular on the famous soap.

But there were other benefits, too, of working at the Club. One morning the General Manager asked me if I would be interested in having the big 52" inch screen TV that was plopped down in the lobby for the members and their guests. Now, remember - this was the '80s - before HD and plasma - and having a big-screen TV, projection or no projection, was a huge deal.

Needless to say, I jumped at the chance - and said "Yes - of course - I'd LOVE to have it. Thank you!"

So, that night, I rushed home to my apartment and started to visualize where I would place the massive TV, not even thinking about how I would get it there from the Club. I started moving furniture around, lifting lamps, moving bookcases, switching tables; I was doing all of that for about an hour and a half. And then I stopped. Abruptly.

There was just no way that 52" inch TV was gonna' fit into my apartment - and did I mention that it was a studio apartment, to top it all off?

No matter how bad I wanted that TV in there; no matter how beautiful it was; no matter how excited and honored I was that the Club's manager picked me to give it to - it just wasn't going to happen. It just wasn't going to fit.

Just like today - for any one of us who may desire a certain goal or objective, and no matter how strong the desire - it just doesn't fit into our lives. And no matter how hard we try to make it fit - it's just not gonna' happen.

Not unless we move.

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Always Follow Your Gut

Science was never one of my better subjects in school, certainly not when I attended college - and failed my freshman science class - which forced me into summer school.

Fortunately, I had a great professor who helped me to not only understand science in the classroom, but the science of life.

"When you make a decision," he would tell us summer students, "stick to it. No matter what it is. Eventually, your decision will work itself out."

I have periodically applied that wonderful advice in the twenty-five years since I first heard it on that semi-smoldering June afternoon in 1979. I just wish I would have applied it more often; meaning, too, that I just wish I would trust my instincts more often. Because I'm usually right, especially when it comes to reading character - and creating a buffer zone or a cushion to brace myself when life doesn't work out, dare I say, as planned.

Decision-making is not easy for any of us. But we have to do it. A very wise friend once told me, "Herb - life is about choices." The thing is, we should stick to those choices once we make them - and we should trust those choices - and our ability to make them.

At least I should, mostly because again, my instincts or gut-feelings are usually correct - on first impressions...and the first-time around.

Sunday, May 06, 2007

"Butterflies Are Free"

Butterflies are wonderful creatures, yes? They may not hold THEE secret to life, but they certainly at least represent a pretty significant one.

Oh, sure they are beautiful beings that experience a miraculous transformation in their lifetime (the whole catapiller-cocoon thing) - but what about that place in our stomach when we "get butterflies"? To me, that's a signal that we're doing the right things - and living right.

In any case, over the years, the butterfly reference has made it into various forms of my work. Years ago, when my nephew was born, I wrote the poem, entitled, SamStar (in which lines 4 and 5 read as follows: "Wish and pray ever in the blessed butterfly spot"). I've copied the poem in this blog before, but I thought to do so here once more (which see below).

Then, recently, I completed my pilot TV script for MarkAngel, the last scene for which is also listed below - and which also includes a reference to the butterfly spot.

May you enjoy both "transformational" references.

Herbie J


SamStar by Herbie J Pilato

There's a star in your soul alone
Which glows with trident strength
One in the same capture holds
Knows this pearl is heaven sent

Wish and pray ever
In the blessed butterfly spot
And a promised Illumined path
Will be shown
So you shall Infine have
Than nil have not
Void of constant ill
Loops been thrown

Temper your pace
And gate with grace
Sense wisdom and love reach far
Into the crest
Of divine inner space
All answers with rest
With SamStar.


The Final Scene From MarkAngel by Herbie J Pilato

INT. MARK’S ROOM.

Once again, Mark is in deep thought, this time, sitting on his bed. In a moment, a WHITE BALL OF LIGHT begins to form near his dresser. The LIGHT slowly begins to outline a FEMALE FORM. It’s AMANDA.

MARK
(awestruck)
Baby!

He rises to embrace her for many moments.

AMANDA
You’ve completed your work, my sweet. And you’ve done it so well.

MARK
Amanda! I don’t believe you’re here.

AMANDA
Oh, now, don’t weaken the power of your work or your words. You brought me here,
by your good deeds.

MARK
And now we can be together. Just as you said we could.

AMANDA
Yes – but…

MARK
But what?

AMANDA
Mark – you could come with me…

MARK
Back to The Above?

AMANDA
(smiling)
Yes…or...

MARK
(interupting)
Or what? Why is there even an or what? You said we would be together if I completely work.
And I did that. At least I thought I did that? Have I done that?

AMANDA
You have, oh you have…so remarkably well. And your father is proud.

MARK
Which one? My Dad-Dad, or The Big Guy?

AMANDA
(laughing)
Both.

MARK
Well, then, that’s good, right.

AMANDA
(still smiling)
Yes. That’s good.

MARK
Remarkable. Hey, my name is in there, re-Mark-able. Mark- is-able. That must mean something, too, right Baby?

She smiles, turns, and begins to cry.

MARK
Amanda, what’s wrong? What is it?

AMANDA
Mark – there’s so much more work to do here in Trinity. There’s so many more people who
could use your help. Who need you. You have such a gift with your good heart. You care so much…for your mother….your community. People can learn so much from you. And their soul development is so much stronger in the Earth school, then in Heaven.

MARK
Uh? How could that be?
(beat)
The Earth School?!

AMANDA
It’s strange, I know. But when a soul is born to Earth, in a physical body, the challenges are much stronger, and so is their development. As a result, many from The Above…and beyond…

MARK
(interrupting)
Beyond!?

AMANDA
(laughing)
There are different levels of Heaven, Mark. And one is more beautiful than the other…
and yet, again, the growth of the soul is heightened more so on Earth.

MARK
(beat)
So once again, I have a…

AMANDA
(interrupting)
A choice…by the gift of God’s free will.

MARK
(beat)
So, is that what you want me to do, then? To stay? Here…?

AMANDA
They need you, Mark.

MARK
And you?

AMANDA
I love you. And you have purified our love like you could never know.

MARK
(beat)
Will we ever be together?

AMANDA
We’ve never been apart.

They embrace and exchange a very passionate kiss.
MARK
It’s nice to know that some things remain the same in both worlds.

They kiss again, and then she pulls away.

AMANDA
So, what is your decision?

MARK
(beat)
I love you Amanda. And I know you love me. And I believe everything you’ve just said, because I’ve always believed everything you’ve ever said.
(beat)
I will stay here – because I love you. And because somehow I feel it will increase our love even more. And because it will not only increase the development of my soul, but of yours.
(beat)
We’re soul mates aren’t we?

Amanda smiles and runs to embrace him once more.

AMANDA
You’re such a beautiful man – someone who has made a choice with a such a true sense of self –
a true sense of universal love - in reserve.

As Amanda echoes these words of his mother, Mark pulls away. He soon places his hands on his abdomen, where feels a strange sensation.
MARK
Amanda? What’s happening? My stomach…It’s like I got a gazillion butterflies in here.

AMANDA
Those aren’t butterflies, sweetie. Those are your pre-angel wings, which are just about
ready to sprout - from the inside, out.
(beat)
I have to go – and yet I’ll always be here.

She stands back, and begins to DEMATERIALIZE. Mark attempts to embrace her once more. But Amanda outreaches her right hand.
AMANDA
No. Our final embrace, when our two souls become one in bliss, is for another…time.

And in a moment, Amanda is GONE from Mark’s life.

AGAIN.

And yet only for now.


END